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Musings with Grief… no.3 …. What grief had to tell me.

[Note: this ‘came through’ in the very early days after losing my soul-friend. My grief has already eased a lot and I know it will lift some more after the funeral.]

Me: Hello old friend, I didn’t expect to feel you again just yet.

Grief: I know…. your heart called me.

Me: I wish we didn’t keep meeting this way, will you ever leave completely?

Grief: No! You don’t get rid of me that easily! I’ll always be around you. Often in the background so that you don’t notice. Always watching for when it’s time to come back to help you.

Me: How is the deep pain that you give me a help?! And the tears and the heart ache and all the thoughts…. I don’t understand.

Grief: They’re here to guide you.

Me: Guide me to what?

Grief: To help you to see and to feel how much love you still have in your heart and soul, despite all of your losses.

Grief: Your tears and heartache are just a sign of how much you loved and how much more time you were h...

Musings with Grief… no.3 …. What grief had to tell me.

[Note: this ‘came through’ in the very early days after losing my soul-friend. My grief has already eased a lot and I know it will lift some more after the funeral.]

Me: Hello old friend, I didn’t expect to feel you again just yet.

Grief: I know…. your heart called me.

Me: I wish we didn’t keep meeting this way, will you ever leave completely?

Grief: No! You don’t get rid of me that easily! I’ll always be around you. Often in the background so that you don’t notice. Always watching for when it’s time to come back to help you.

Me: How is the deep pain that you give me a help?! And the tears and the heart ache and all the thoughts…. I don’t understand.

Grief: They’re here to guide you.

Me: Guide me to what?

Grief: To help you to see and to feel how much love you still have in your heart and soul, despite all of your losses.

Grief: Your tears and heartache are just a sign of how much you loved and how much more time you were h...

Musings with grief… no. 2

I shared last time my insight about heart-broken = heart-open.

And I wrote that it opens to let your unused love flow out, which I know many people feel.

But… I’ve had another insight on this!

It’s not new though, I just didn’t really feel it to the depths it can be felt in the past.

I’ve often shared Rumi’s quote: “The wound is the place where the Light enters you”

And I thought that I *knew* what that meant…. And I did…. I ‘knew’, but that isn’t what Rumi was writing about – in my humble opinion.

I ‘knew’, because I’ve experienced much heartache from loss in the past (through death and the ending of relationships) and my heartache had lead me to my spiritual path and to understanding myself better, knowing what makes me, me etc.

BUT what I now *feel*, with every fibre of my being, is that when our broken hearts fully OPEN it’s not just to let out the love we feel…. more importantly it’s to let IN the love of the Divine.

Whether you call that god/god...

Musings with Grief..... no.1

As I've been exploring my grief this last almost 3 weeks (following the death of my ex partner
and soul-friend), I’ve received a great many insights which I've decided to share here in the hope that it may help you too... here's the first.

'Heart-broken', when you can truly and deeply lean into it is really ‘heart-open'.

Your heart opens to let your over-flowing love flow out ❤ …. more on this next time.

Your heart-ache lets you know that you're still alive, you are still here, you still have things to achieve, perhaps something that will change the world, who knows?

Your 'heart-opening' comes to propel you forward, but you mis-interpret it and it often passes as a missed opportunity.

We've usually been taught to squash it, especially through the 'British - stiff upper lip!'.

When my mum died, not long after my 20th birthday (in the summer), my personal tutor at Uni said to me (when I went back in the autumn) - 'We'll give you until Christmas to recover'! I di...